"A world in flux is assumed; it is the only constant in life." -Narrye Caldwell
These words resonated directly to my heart this morning. I was reading about the Year of the Rooster and author was talking about how Chinese traditions of wisdom are "systems of pattern identification that guide us in adapting gracefully to change." Adapting gracefully to change.
I'm frustrated right now. I want to fight. I want to rest. I want to give my all to my students, my biological children, my friends, my husband. I want to process ALL THIS INCOMING INFORMATION. I want to go to every rally, and read every book, and be a part of every get together. It's not all fitting. And I'm beating myself up over it.
I keep thinking "If I can just get a better routine. If I can just get a LITTLE more organized. If I can just get THE GROUND UNDER MY FEET. Then it will click. Then everything will fit. Then everything will stop changing." But that's just not the truth. It's not all going to fit into every day. And I have to let go of that (impossible, foolish, selfish) dream.
So, if you're like me (bless you, I know what it's like to have THAT mind) and everything feels uprooted right now, take a breather. The only constant is change. It's okay to take it one day at a time, to have shifting priorities. Some days, you will need to call every Senator. Some days, you will not survive without yoga. Some days, a doctor's appointment with your four-year-old is ALL YOU CAN TAKE. Some days, keep to yourself. Some days, make the effort to get out and see people. Do what you can.