Thursday, April 3, 2014

walk it off

The past week has been a complete whirlwind.  Elliott and I went to Florida.  Pink eye took over our household.  One of my sisters was in an earthquake while on a fancy business trip to California.  One of my sisters celebrated her coming baby.  One of my sisters got engaged. 

Sometimes stupid moms say things like, "Honestly, my kids never get sick, and we've never even HAD an ear infection" and then both ears are infected and your kid lifts his tiny head and is so swollen from fighting bacteria that he looks like a tiny Rocky Balboa and you cry, in the nursery, in the morning, and do some quick math to figure out if you have enough sick days left to cover this ish.  Those moms are dumb.

I've been thinking much, much, much too much.  Thinking about what is WRONG with me.  Why is my house so dirty?  Why can't I lose weight?  Why do I always feel like I'm inconveniencing day care or massively letting down work?  Why do I spend my time so poorly?  Why am I such a mess? Why can't I handle this stuff without subjecting people to post after post after post about the same mundane problems that everyone deals with and why is everyone doing it BETTER?  I quickly remember that I'm just how I am and if I went for a walk I'd probably calm down and I think about the advice I gave my sister at her baby shower, as the mom with the most recent kids.  There were lots of young pregnant ladies in there.  I felt pressure to make it good.

"No one knows that they're doing.  That's my advice.  None of us know what we're doing.  And if it seems like we do, we're lying." 



I plan to get myself organized (snort) and get back on track over here.  I have a word-of-the-year update for February and March, another write feed play read, and a really cool interview project that I'm excited about.  Stay tuned, lovelies. 


2 comments:

  1. This too will pass. Promise.

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